Rallying the Troops

I told J about Stalker last night. I've written this post maybe three times and now I think I'm just basically going to say this: I finally told J and he wasn't mad at me though he would like to beat the piss out of Stalker. He is, of course, very concerned and I had to explain all of the options I have and how I'm not going to just let things happen.

I felt better for telling him and realized that I think the anger I've been feeling the last few days has been because of the recent events (the 1 a.m. email and the coming to my cubicle for no real reason). I've been put on high alert again after I finally managed to calm down. Hunter knows all about it but he isn't here and can't really help me. No one else in my company knows from me (I'm certain one guy knows from Stalker but I don't know who else he might have spoken with). So I've been on edge and nervous and uncertain without any back up. Now I have J and I don't have to worry so much any more about not having told him.

I didn't go into detail (I prefer not to relive every single moment of my life after all), but I told him the basics and let him know that this did not just affect me but my friend. He convinced me that I needed to tell someone in my office so I emailed my old boss late in the evening. I sent her a very black and white, dry, sterile account of what happened and explained that I just needed someone in the office to have documentation of it. Because what if Stalker decides to try to cause problems for me at my job? I don't think he will but then, I never thought he'd abuse his position and access my email in order to harass me so who knows?

So the secret is sort of out and I'm nervous about how old boss will handle it but I think it was for the best. I also hope, sincerely, that I don't ever waste another post on that mother fucker.