Vaguely Ambiguous

I just realized that, in an attempt to extend an olive branch or what have you, I gave both of my older brothers a link to this blog. What an idiot. No, that isn't fair. I didn't know events would unfold like have so it seemed like an OK thing to do at the time.

But what now? What if one of them gets bored enough to actually check this site? Do I end every post (or begin it) with "if you are reading this, please don't say anything to mom"?

Because I know my middle brother and his wife keep mom fairly up to date with whatever happens to be on my facebook page. Seriously. My mom and brother both called me once because I had a facebook status that seemed more dire than life really was. At that time J and I still had a land-line but our cordless phones sucked and didn't work half the time. So mom and A.M. were calling me trying to make sure I was OK and couldn't get through. I think A.M. e-mailed me eventually and I went outside to use my Kroger go phone to let them know I was OK.

But yeah, all that over facebook.

Now I feel just a it more inhibited about what I say on this site for fear that my family will find out things about my life and, as absurd as it sounds, I don't want them to know. If I could go back, I wouldn't have told J or my family about the MS diagnosis. That sounds stupid as well, but you know, certain events in life change people and I think I might prefer to just be me before any diagnosis or upheaval.

But, no use regretting. If you've worked in my office for any length of time you become fairly familiar with the concept of the work around and so I'll simply kick around an idea and see if it seems worth it.