So this is what it feels like to officially end things. J and I got together today so he could get a few things. We went to lunch. We went back to my place. He asked "so where are we?" I've been avoiding it but I finally just told him that we aren't going to work out.
We both knew it; that didn't make it any easier for either one of us.
We cried and talked. We love each other and we want what is best. But we also know it wasn't going to be with one another. How can that be? How can we love each other but not be in a good marriage?
Because we just aren't right.
And I'll never regret it. I've been with him for seven years and some of it was bad and some of it was great. but I'll never look back on any of it with regret. I'm truly a better person because of him.
I told my mother. She asked me if I'd been able to sleep yet. I told her no, and I don't think I will be for some time.
We both knew it; that didn't make it any easier for either one of us.
We cried and talked. We love each other and we want what is best. But we also know it wasn't going to be with one another. How can that be? How can we love each other but not be in a good marriage?
Because we just aren't right.
And I'll never regret it. I've been with him for seven years and some of it was bad and some of it was great. but I'll never look back on any of it with regret. I'm truly a better person because of him.
I told my mother. She asked me if I'd been able to sleep yet. I told her no, and I don't think I will be for some time.
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