Next!

This was about the best back to work transitions I've ever had. I was off work for six days straight and that time did wonders for me. I approached my work with less anxiety and frustration than I've felt in a long time. I didn't let colleagues bother me; hell, my boss only pissed me off once! I even found out that I've lost six pounds in the last three or four weeks (so I ate some stale gummy bears after lunch).

I wore new shoes, which are super cute and do lovely things for my 'gams.' Ended up with sore toes but definitely worth it. Also went to the gym at lunch and ran two miles, faster than I should have, so my legs aren't feeling so hot either. But again, totally worth it. Hopefully I can convince my lazy ass to go to the gym more frequently. Tomorrow, though, I think I'll either wear flats or heals that have been broken in. No reason to totally destroy my legs, especially when I have new heals that make them look so good!

I am incredibly surprised today turned out so well as yesterday definitely went out on a sour note. I don't feel like going into it but I totally jerked J around and hurt him. I didn't mean to, I just didn't think. And that means I behaved selfishly, with just my own interests in mind. It was bad, it was ugly, but it ended and I am alone again and that is a relief.

There are things going on in my life and in my head that are confusing and difficult and that I can't put on this blog because I know some of those who read it. But I think the chapter is changing and I'm ready for it.