I have multiple sclerosis. Doesn't that sound awful and creepy? It's one of those diseases that just makes you think of weird relatives who need "help" doesn't it? Unless you are one of those people who get off on such things.
MS is nerve thing, specifically, a central nervous "disorder". Your body acts as its own enemy and makes it so you can't feel things and you can't do things. It's all types of awesome. It has always been ugly in my mind; i know I've said before that I have always been afraid of it and I've shaken my fists at the sky a number of times since my diagnosis because, well, it just isn't fair. Why me and woe is me and all of that. Two year old prostrate on the floor kicking and screaming. The whole thing.
But do you know what IS fun about it? The neurological tests.There are so many people who will never get to go to the doctor and have their well being measured by how quickly they clap with their right hand and then their left. There are so many who will never be told "you seem to not feel vibrations right in your left big toe".
Medicine has come a long way but it's still my big toe that we have to pay attention to. Mommy was with me for my first visit, when one of my big toes was deemed insubstantial. "She'll never be in the ballet" was her response. Dance was out. And I can't yell very well so my rap career was also side lined.
All I guess I have is the hilarity of going to the neurologist. MS is fucking awesome.
MS is nerve thing, specifically, a central nervous "disorder". Your body acts as its own enemy and makes it so you can't feel things and you can't do things. It's all types of awesome. It has always been ugly in my mind; i know I've said before that I have always been afraid of it and I've shaken my fists at the sky a number of times since my diagnosis because, well, it just isn't fair. Why me and woe is me and all of that. Two year old prostrate on the floor kicking and screaming. The whole thing.
But do you know what IS fun about it? The neurological tests.There are so many people who will never get to go to the doctor and have their well being measured by how quickly they clap with their right hand and then their left. There are so many who will never be told "you seem to not feel vibrations right in your left big toe".
Medicine has come a long way but it's still my big toe that we have to pay attention to. Mommy was with me for my first visit, when one of my big toes was deemed insubstantial. "She'll never be in the ballet" was her response. Dance was out. And I can't yell very well so my rap career was also side lined.
All I guess I have is the hilarity of going to the neurologist. MS is fucking awesome.
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